Another Journey 1992

When I was young with 5 kids and no husband, it was really hard trying to raise them alone.  I made a lot of mistakes along the way in regard to relationships and missed opportunities.  Raising them became a career to me, more important than my job.  I made just as many sacrifices as mistakes and I don't believe I would have done anything different given the opportunity.

When I gave my life to the Lord, I was still having some difficulty.  Low self esteem, and a deep sadness because of my financial situation and not being able to provide things for my children I wanted them to have.  They got in fights, my only daughter began to have boys on her mind.  So it was rough.  Back in 1992, I prayed and asked for God's help.  I remember soaking my pillow with my tears, not really speaking out loud; just aching inside; almost wanting to leave this life.  If it weren't for the thought of my kids being without a Mother too, I would of being praying for that.

In all my sadness and self pity, while laying there I found myself walking on what look to be a narrow road in the sky, in the midst of the night; in great agony.  I finally got to the end .  I was obviously in the spirit, yet when this road ended, I saw what looked like a grey stone open cave.  Suddenly I felt a presence and a voice whispered "look in".  I looked in and saw nothing and said what?  The presence said "look in again."  I did and saw nothing.  The presence I felt said, "Look again."  I still didn't see anything.  Than I heard a voice say, " I'm not in there, I'm right here with you."  I turned to the right and I saw an image of Jesus, who said again; "I"m not in there, I'm right here with you, I've been with you all the time and I will never leave you".

I jerked my head up off the soaking pillow and the whole room was lit up.  I felt different.  I got up and looked around the house and even though I had turned all the lights out before laying down, it was not only lit up, but bright.  I could see every thing clearly as though I had a candle.

From that night on, I didn't care what people thought about me as a single parent.  I didn't feel less than the rest.  I felt, what God had given me for my children was more than enough.  When I went to church that next Sunday, I communed with
God and gave every last one of them to him.  I didn't go before a church board or even speak to the Pastor about it.  I did go to the alter though.  The men and women of God layed hands on me and my children and prayed.

From that point on, whenever there was an issue among them or with one of them individually.  I took it to God.  I read his Word to them regularly. Them and their friends.  We discussed what the message given at church was about.  We had dialogue in and about the Word of God.  As we ate our meals.  Prayer took place for every event in their lives.

We weren't a perfect family, but we were, and still are children of  the most High God.

There is no better teacher, no better counselor, no better judge, no better lawyer, and no better father.  He will be a husband to widow, and a father to the fatherless or orphan.  Turn your life and your families life over to
God.  He won't break your heart and he won't let you down.

Glory to God and Bless the Lord!

After these things Jesus shewed himself again to the disciples at the sea of Tiberias; and on this wise shewed he himself (John 21:1).

This is now the third time that Jesus shewed himself to his disciples, after that he was risen from the dead (John 21:14).

So when they had dined, Jesus saith to Simon Peter, Simon, son of Jonas, lovest thou me more than these? He saith unto him, Yea, Lord; thou knowest that I love thee. He saith unto him, Feed my lambs.   He saith to him again the second time, Simon, son of Jonas, lovest thou me? He saith unto him, Yea, Lord; thou knowest that I love thee. He saith unto him, Feed my sheep (John 221: 15-16).

But Jesus called them unto him, and said, Suffer little children to come unto me, and forbid them not: for of such is the kingdom of God (Luke 18:16).

Which executeth judgment for the oppressed: which giveth food to the hungry. The LORD looseth the prisoners:   The LORD openeth the eyes of the blind: the LORD raiseth them that are bowed down: the LORD loveth the righteous:   The LORD preserveth the strangers; he relieveth the fatherless and widow: but the way of the wicked he turneth upside down.  The LORD shall reign for ever, even thy God, O Zion, unto all generations. Praise ye the LORD (Psalm 146: 7-10).